wine glass charades

[voice one]
and the wine glass charades are over
now sleep's befallen all of our close friends
it's only just us two and the moonlight
(this will be the song we play until the end)

'cause we're coming to a finish much too early
we've only just begun to break the surface in
so let's start an exploration of each other
(this will be the song we play until the end)

and its bad news for being so forgiving
but its worse to think you're not of clearer mind
'cause it's only just the two of us and the moonlight
(this will be the song we play until the end)

[Voice 2]
I've a feeling that glass is much too empty
but we've drunk the bottle dry and much too thin
it's clear the candles leave more to imagination
(this will be the song we play until the end)

Why don't we learn how our bodies work in tandem
tangled clumsily, embrace to which we bend
silently we pretend as if we're acting
(this will be the song we play until the end)

and it's bad news to love you without knowing
but it's worse to think you're just as ill-informed
'cause it's only just the two of us and the moonlight
(this will be the song we play until the end)

and it's bad news to see another side of you
but it's worse; it's always been before my eyes
I don't want to be alone under the moonlight
(this will be the song we play until the end)

this attraction gives me certain inclinations
and we're coming to the close of all we knew
if that's the case no one else is better-suited
(this will be the song we play until the end)

there's a hurting in your heart, ever-constant,
rest-assured, I won't contribute more to it
as we realize we've come upon a sunrise
this just as much beginning as an end

Done to You

Old floral patterns
become deeper hearts
until they break apart

His favorite things
left on a night stand
he could hardly stand it all

I was a break before the rest of your life
One last adventure before it all ends
I wasn't faking, emotions were true
but years down the line, I'll wonder, what have I done to you?

She sleeps alone
but she doesn't know
I'm already gone

Reaching out for empty air
left an impression
on her bed and her heart

I was a break before the rest of your life
One last mistake, giving more than you take
I wasn't faking, emotions were true
but years down the line, I'll wonder, what have I done to you

We were all so young
time is never done
I am that to you
but you'll be loved soon

becoming
forgetting
forgiving
What have I done to you
Destroying
Denying
our worries
What have I done to you

Eight Seconds

I once had to wait eight seconds
for the poison ingested to register its effects
now its instantaneous, you see
but I go overboard like so many times before
Oh, I never keep the score

I once had to wait eight seconds
for the insult to sink beneath the layers of skin
now its all so facetious to me
but they go overboard, oh but can't you see the scar
Oh, you've gone to fucking far

I once had to wait eight seconds
till my nerves communicated to my brain and then back
there's a pain in my heart that won't leave
but I know there's a cure; there's no truth beneath a lie
Aye, you're running out of time

I once had to wait eight seconds
for the friendship to go south, almost as fast as our love
never thought this could happen to me
but I'm eating my words, now I'm looking for the signs
Aye,

I once had to wait eight seconds
for the rip-cord to respond, unnecessary delay
like a parachute, I'm open wide
but I can't see her now, no, we're both so very far
Oh, won't ever see the scars

Just tonight

No one I know of your persuasion
truth comes out with inebriation
Old confessions will always leave a stain

sun is setting, we're falling with it
heads together, the taste of your kiss
he won't have to know about tonight

Just tonight
It's better that I say
Just tonight
It's better off this way

When I see you, certain elation
from life, you're my...my derivation
it's not easy, this is true and plain

But there's nothing that I can do now
you have something, but I don't know how
it's just me and the routine tonight

(bridge)
Maybe someday, I can find a way to be decent
last I heard I surrendered to my fate
I will light the candle at both ends then spoil
But you could blow it out if only you could leave him behind

Just tonight
It's better that I say
Just tonight
It's better off this way

Just once
I'd like a second chance
Just once
I want someone to dance with me

But it's just tonight
It's better, so I say
Just tonight
It's better off this way

Call me Cain enabled
by the anger in my heart
I guess I'll leave, once again,
to find another love

And here, before you, Ninevah,
fallen down from up above,
cast shadows on broken faith
'til the sun will take you way away from here

I loved you in a time
when it was fashionable to feel
The hills are proving mountains
shout profanities from here

And here, before you, Ninevah,
fallen down from up above,
cast shadow on broken faith
'til the sun will take you way away from here

Oh I didn't mean to take your life
You just pushed me and my pride

Tell me, did you mean to break me down?
Either way you'll stave the constant sound

Out of Eden I go, gonna take myself away
it's too late for us to ever be saved

watershed moment

Watershed moment when I told her there was no chance
a million little pieces would have been better as one
this ain't the same scholar that you met last holiday new year
but darling don't deny it, i was always born to run

you could meet me at the lake and hope that I will be forgiving
but more than likely I will hold a candle up to you
it's just to singe your perfect skin and issue retribution
it doesn't mean a thing to me, and I don't love you too

and it's time to rise above your sinking tides
I'll arise to light and never know what darkness is again

Watershed moment when you don't look back, but forward
maybe you're progressing and the world won't ever change
but you know that that's impossible and we're all slowly fading
and nothing's ever normal, she took half of all you claim

and it's time to rise above your sinking tides
I'll arise to light and never know what darkness is again
and the signs are bright when you flood them in the night
all the roads will try to bring you back to where you don't wanna be
to bring you back to belonging, so it seems

Watershed moment when you're coming to an ending
it's amazing how you find a way to split the differences
like a bridge you burned back when you said there's no such thing as romance
the smoke is in your eyes and now her hands are still in his

and it's time to rise above your sinking tides
I'll arise to light and never know what darkness is again

My Intention

Conform into shapes unlike
all the suns that will radiate their older light

it's complicated, like the carbon pressed
that you wear around your finger, as he did suggest

my regret is that I let him win
I swear, I needed time to figure out to what extent

I could love you and be your eyes
show you how to make this image re-align on me

why should you hurry?
It wasn't my intention to be lingering
What's good in running?
I don't know what do to...
do I chase after you
Or do let you come back?

Synapses in the thalamus
got me fantasizing about this lover's tryst

All that I should say is this
it was product of imagination, that kiss

Why did I rush this?
It wasn't my intention to be so remiss
before you shake this
I don't know what to do
you're pulling me into you

These clothes, do they skin deep
It's been said that my heart is beating underneath

now it seems that you took it quick
you can have it, it's a habit that I'd better kick

This situation
I had never thought that I could be the lonely one
Multiplication
no, I can't keep making when I've lost the one

Barely Love

You know that feeling when you live inside
someone that you cannot recognize
I hate it

The metaphors only hypothesize
but nothing's real as right before your eyes
I'll take it

A moment right before you take a leap
as if your heart is improvising beats
It's alarming

the crowd will cut her with its crooked teeth
but I can't help it given what I see
don't harm me

and so if this is love
I hardly know it
and so if this is love
It's barely true

you share more than a broken glance between
it's said that clothes can never go skin deep
let's prove it

our souls pretend as if they're something clean
the truth is that I've happened, once, to dream
about you
about you and me

and so if this is love
I hardly know it
and so if this is love
It's barely true to me
you've ruined every inch of me
forgotten
and there's only what you've built on top of it

i'll take the best of you and disregard
'cause we are our flaws, just like the stars;
imperfect
and for the record I'm a broken record, talkin' 'bout
love and it's funny cause I don't find it funny
at all

you know that moment when you live inside
a second slivered up a thousand times
you keep it

and it's "Fate! Fate!" that has brought you two
but this predisposition be the death of you
receive it

and so if this is love
I hardly know it
and so if this is love
It's barely true to me
you've ruined every inch of me
forgotten
and there's only what you've left, a scar, a fee

Incomplete thought - revised

When you change your eyes like that
I can’t help but wonder,
what’s wrong with the brown in your irises?
thoughts race and we've come to compliments
still wondering why
you feel the need to put on a mask
those see thru cataracts
can change how you’re seen but now do you really see?

There’s more to this than any fashion
each day you take the elevator
It's just a temporal obsession
by chance I took the elevator

Incomplete thought - revised

When you change your eyes like that
I can’t help but wonder,
what’s wrong with the brown in your irises?
thoughts race and we've come to compliments
still wondering why
you feel the need put on a mask
those see thru cataracts
can change how you’re seen but now do you really see?

There’s more to this than any fashion
each day you take the elevator
It's just a temporal obsession
by chance I took the elevator

1/5 Life

You live and you breathe, and still think you're alive
for nothing's more poignant than braving a sigh
the happy you wear's not the happy you seek; it's a lie

Next day, you'll have toasted to travels and trunks
Your advent'rous side hungers with wanderlust
It's something that's proven, but not with results that you sought

The days and the nights fill themselves with the drinks
and it seems the lady doth protest shethinks
The brink becomes more than idea and fruition's come to

And in your regret you find no more relief
than what you began with, than what you could breathe
it's probably due to the unfortunate self you've deceived

Your location change doesn't alter the truth
of the future that someone had promised to you
not once did the thought cross your mind that what you have accrued is not nearly enough to renew
a cause for oneself that is nobler than thou
but will most likely do for a spot in the crowd
so then live and then breathe in a time that is other than now
before questions like when where and how overwhelm
before you step down for the next to take helm
before your existence is defined at the ring of a bell
it's not war
but it's hell
plead the fifth of your life

Things I want to do

I want to watch my fist go through a wall and never reach the other side,
watch the ripples in the stone, like rubber, undulate like grass in summer wind

I want to steal the skin that, perfect, clings onto your bones as deathly grip
why prolong what’s sure to happen to a beauty in the night on false pretense

I want to watch them writhe as guilt betrays them so the grays would fill the cracks
where black and white could not be met and thieves with golden hair will ‘brace the dying flight

I want to see my lies reveal themselves to all whom I had secrets kept
in hopes that, rearing ghastly heads, they spoke of insolence, egregiousness abhorred

I want to meet the love that never was or is or will be, nothing more
and hold her close and tight only to say but once, “Lenore, I love you nevermore”

Chasing Moths (Dated December 27, 2008)

It was my fault
trying to be unknown,
I’m on my own again.
Keep chasing moths;
they’ll eat away
at your nostalgia for good.

For goodness sake
I hope I won’t unravel, hope that I won’t break
The years of mountains broken in days

It’s in my head
in the back right next to all your treachery
The dear dishonor you laid on me

And so I left,
for a time
you held my desecrated heart
And like a flag
I’ve been captured
and stolen so no one ever could claim

Charlie v. the Frustration (Dated December 17, 2008)

Charlie was sitting on a bench in a park
a park unkempt and broken
by the children who’d grown
by the sun that had shown
it’s teeth to the grass
and burnt the green yellow

Charlie was thinking, on the bench, of a girl
a girl who’d sent for a cab
for Charlie to ride in
for his soul to writhe in
as if he would wring himself
blood and all
for her and no one else

Charlie was breathing on the bench with the world
on his back and stuck in a lyric
“No there is no other one
I can’t have any other one
Though I would, now I never
could with one;” a cycle
of rivers flow into the sea
hung in the strings

Charlie was leaving his soul on a bench
for the girl who made him think
of the murdering sun,
of the blood that was wrung,
of the lyrics that won
him over in time
and the cab would leave him
as a stitch in time;
without yours, without mine.

Better get up on your run, Charlie.